its quite late,quarter to two, in the morning.. so its the 23rd already.. time flies.. when you wait for it, you always think it goes slowly, even slower then snails.. but when you don't pay attention to it, it flies, just like that, like you're in a time machine or something and you're suddenly here, at this very moment..

i don't know what i'm expecting.. couple of months ago i was sooo looking forward to the future, can't wait to graduate, and to go back home to my sweet hot country! and now? i'm like in the middle of a crossroad, still don't know which way to choose.. well, i am not in the middle of the crossroad, so i dont get to choose yet, but it feels like i am already there.. i trully am thinking about future choices right now.. i remember an episode of Gilmore Girls, when Rory cried just because she didn't know what to expect next, didn't know what will be in front of her, and just didn't know where to go, everything, the real world seems so unclear.. well,that's what i kinda feel now.. so i guess it's so true when people say, getting older means dealing with more problems, problems get more complex, much harder, its so true people!! so if you're a teen, don't rush to grow up, believe me..

i just called my bestfriend.. i am happy i finally share my story, i feel relieved.. i miss her.. :) she's going back to Indo tomorrow morning, and then have a grand opening of her mom's new resto called Olive in Jakarta.. i soooo wanna be there!!! she invites some of our closest friends, and its only me who's not gonna be there, how great is that! aarrgghhh...

huaaahhh... i need to sleep, just finished my last exam yesterday, finallyyy!!! time for vacation!! i just wanna have fun and forget the rest, i'm so tired thinking of all other things, wanna slow it down for a while.. im going to Zurich, Switzerland! can't wait can't wait can't wait...... :)